oh hahas

2006-09-22T03:09:00.000+08:00

guess i'll be leaving this blog for awhile.
i've really cooped up at work and im stating school today.
so boys and girls... BYE.
and my tagboard is killing me! its not working damnit.
well, just a recent update.

-angkongsiao [aka lamb chops] and i are doing fine thank you [to those who are concerned]

-justin and i are goodbye forever.

-been catching up with the girls at cityhall.[ real good. thanks.]

-im still using my cool 6510..

- still loving casada and fall out boy

thats all for now.. lots of love

2006-09-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

hey all, im back from china.
it was fruitful but i must add, im never going going back.
thanks but no thanks

2006-08-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

deep down, i loved you the most.and i cant forget.

i need to catch up with my friends and school.
forget about the boys.
i need to do something else other than work.
forget about the boys.
i need to go on a break.
forget about the boys.
i need to let veneta,carrie kirstin and nadia know that i miss them alot.
forget about the boys.

yay! im going to china next friday!
yummy.but then again,
how can china be fun? what is there to do there?

2006-08-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

im so tired. yet i've so little time to do my assignments. im gonna get so screwed ..god.

2006-08-16T13:57:00.000+08:00

i miss my girls.]

working is overtaking my life. can you imagine if i work full time?i wont have time to sleep! i wont get to see mummy ...but in any case...

carrie: lets club club soon!
kirstin: fly safely pls. i wanna see you!
veneta:good luck for your exams.stay over soon? need some math tuition?
nadia: AHYA. i see you the most.but still,girl.take care of yourself.have school girl sex soon pls.

2006-08-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings and ask him just why
He played such a sick joke on the fool that is me
And curse me with this sickness
Your love is my heart disease.

2006-07-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

friday's a good day.
nice weather
good music
good drinks
crazy girls
HOT, let me repeat hot...hot boys.
bad boys, st pats boy, super eurasian surnames... i like.

2006-07-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

they ask me
"tingsy, why do you dream all the time? whats always on your mind?"

boy, there's so much. i dont believe in trust,because everyone comes and goes, they leave and break your trust.

i stopped believing in love, cos everybody changes.

2006-07-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

I miss you the moment you walk away.
And not a minute of my day goes by,
without the thought of you close behind

2006-07-12T02:34:00.000+08:00

you know, when i read people's blog..
i feel more pathetic than i already am
they have so many people to care, to talk to.
yeah, sure i do have friends but its the certain people i want to talk to.
and i always dont get the people i need
you know why i dont trust in everlasting love or marriage?
because no one has proven to me it can be done.

2006-07-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes i imagine myself being dead and lying in the coffin.
with my face heavily made up,will there be wrinkles and crowfeet on my face?
what will i be wearing? black clothes? black shoes?
what if it was an accident and my arm came off? wouldnt i be looking worst?

sometimes, while thinking about such things.. i feel like in a trance mood. with my eyes open, looking at friends and family giving their respects, placing their white rose on the glass above me. will they dare to look at me ?

its not that im particulary 'dark' natured to think about such things.but have you wondered what it would feel like? how was it like to be lifeless,dead and people sobbing for you. and i meant everyone sobbing for you?

will it prick you, thinking they're upset and you left them ?

i mean, you cannot avoid such human - death matters. it will come to you soon or later if your fortunate.

upon my white coffin,
if anything should happen,
i will keep watch on everyone,
hope they're safe.
and pray for them.

ANYWAY,FOR THOSE WHO HAVENT BOUGHT ANYTHING FOR ME.. YOU CAN GET A GOLDEN RETRIEVER FOR ME. THANKS. SEND TO MY HOUSE OK!?

2006-07-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

okay. everything's over.
your happy then im happy.

ps: have you ever thought about me the way i think about you?

2006-07-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

im in a mess.
someone's not being kind to me.
god's being unfair
carrie doesnt love me anymore

chris:i sell damien to you?

dino: there's a secret i need you to know..

jiaa: your the best in the world. my superstar.

santino: i miss you. have fun in army! yay! dez is finally mine!

im turning crooked ! just to let all you to know, girls rock! and i found the perfect partner..

2006-07-06T02:51:00.000+08:00

for this birthday,
all i wish
is to get
myself
outta of this
bloody,motherfucking mess that is uncalled for.

2006-07-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

2006-06-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

im a closet ah lian

2006-06-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been hearing things about myself saying im not like before, not as crazy,not as talkative and outgoing. to a certain extent, its so true.i find myself so quiet, even if at the back of my mind im screaming at you, i dont voice it out. unlike afew months ago-whatever thats on my mind, i voice and probably thats why i often get into trouble.

its not like i want to save on that trouble now,but its just that when im quiet im either daydreaming or thinking about things. well, god did give us a pair of ears and one mouth. reason being for us to listen more than to speak.something's happening to me, im so quiet,so shy,so laid back,so uncool. i wonder what's happening. well, im looking forward to a wild night soon. for me to unleash myself back again and be happy.oh yeah. im hell depressed. over everything.thinking why the hell did i not take my own life,why didnt i slit myself deeper years back,why didnt i just jump down at the ledge , is it because at that point there was still something to live for? or is it because i couldnt bear to leave my loved ones?life is indeed so unpredictable and imaginable. one year ago ME , and the now ME is so different. i had so much love to give, so many emotions to show, so many expressions i cant wait to tell,so many stories to exhibit. why the change you might ask,probably its one night of misery that transformed me.its the one night, i wanted to die , the one night of questions , one night of love that died.
that one night, i told myself not to give my self away, not to be used by others . i told myself, that no one is this fucking world loves you completely. and that love is bullshit. theres no one you could actually trust.i dont know how couples can actually get married and live together forever? like, for those of your parents that are still happily together.. how do they manage to maintain that lovey dovey relationship? is it because they have kids so they must always think for them and not abandon each other so hastily like young couples do? or is there some kind of magic working?

im not some EMO kid that wants to die now, but its time of my life where i start thinking why this, why that. im glad now for who i am and what i have.

this sweet madness, glorious sadness.

2006-06-26T19:20:00.000+08:00

do what you do best.
kiss me,
then leave me

2006-06-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

i will never ever ...

2006-06-24T03:55:00.000+08:00

i just came back from work. its like bloody 4am in the morning. and with blisters covering my foot ! can you imagine how tired i am? walau.

i've a project to do and its like " why is parental involvement important in a child's developement?" its so dumb lah. and i've to fill in like 1800 words. like oh noooooooooooooo. hahas.

im going for the svdp's concert at CJC at 730pm . anyone going? see me there. i miss my friends lah.

2006-06-23T03:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I visited the House of Condom at the basement of Lucky Plaza in Orchard Road. i remember being there the last time with kirstin,carrie and huajia. yes u read me right, HUAJIA. anyway, back to the topic, while we were there, mr armstrong messaged me like this:
"why did you girls bring an innocent huajia to the naughty place?"
"oh my god. where are you? stop stalking me!"
"i just walked passed lah. and saw all of you there ..""
oh. all right.we're just a bunch of curious, harmless teenagers. just curious only."
"yeah right."

so yesterday, i had an hour before work and far east was getting boring. i was just walking and house of condom always seems so interesting with young couples peeking in, philipino maids sitting opposite looking in and all the naughty couples heading in. so , for those of you who has never been there which you're so lying. here is what goes inside.

There were lots of people inspecting merchandise, mostly students or early 20s. Not touching anything - oh no, God forbid they interact with the products but just staring very hard at stuff. Slently, with their arms folded or resting at the side.

Then there were the couples huddled in their respective corners conducting serious discussions (mint vs. strawberry, ribbed vs. studded - I can only imagine) in hushed tones. Occasionally a giggle or two would escape guiltily from them, only to be hastily shushed and instantly disowned.

anyway, i would make more trips there if the store was full of handsome, eligible men whom I could 'accidentally' brush up against.

and the truth is, i will miss you.

2006-06-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

i wanna go on a holiday! i've feeling so awful these days i just wanna get out!

2006-06-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

its me and my boyfriend

i was waiting for you to tell me you were ready
i know what to do, if only you would let me
as long as your cool with it, i'll treat you right
here is what you wanna be

2006-06-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

i've a problem with relationships.
guys can commit but they get bored.
they cant stick with you forever
and girls cant keep them forever
guys break your heart and make you cry
they dont stay with you for long.
be happy for now
like folks always say 'treasure what you have at the moment'
cos what comes will go.

2006-06-05T14:35:00.000+08:00

In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

baby , with you
its heartache every moment.
but i dont wanna give up.

2006-06-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

i try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke

2006-05-29T03:02:00.001+08:00

So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

2006-05-29T03:02:00.000+08:00

So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

2006-05-26T13:23:00.000+08:00

jeremy oh jeremy.
i hope you had fun last night.
great to catch on where we left off.
you've been good all the while
marcus would like to meet you.
and he asked for a threesome
please, tell him to fuck off.
i think i should be a lesbian
lesbians are way cool and hot.
anyone knows anybody working at zara at marina sq?
there's this girl there..
she's so cute. damn good looking.
seeing her is like going to heaven to taste strawberries!

2006-05-24T14:17:00.000+08:00

im so tired juggling work and school. and i wanna quit since there are like other places better. like higher pay, less men and smaller work area. each time after i work, my legs are like tofu . i walk so much .. back and forth.. after work i just wanna go back and hit the crib.
anyways.i miss my schoolmates. i wanna go back to school with my class!!!!!

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie

baby, all that sweet talking isnt gonna work on me.

2006-05-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

you can block and unblock me
let me know that you know im dating
make it seems like imma bitch.
but you know what sweets?
i know i am. i wont deny.

just like what veneta says
" its not like you treated me well when i was with you. so go and be sore all you want."

and marcus, yes all right. i'll take my chance to enjoy singlehood.

2006-05-20T04:38:00.000+08:00

i just took this survey! freaky true.

Life as an ENFP
(Extravert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver)

People of this type tend to be: enthusiastic, talkative, and outgoing; clever, curious, and playful; deeply caring, sensitive, and gentle; highly innovative, creative, optimistic, and unique; adaptable and resourceful but sometimes disorganized.

The most important thing to ENFPs is freedom to see possibilities, make connections, and be with a variety of people.

Great careers for ENFPs

Here are just a few popular and often satisfying careers for people whose Personality Type is ENFP.

Advertising account executive

Career / outplacement counselor

Management consultant

Developer of educational software

Actor

Journalist / magazine reporter

Graphics designer

Art director

Copy writer

Corporate team trainer

Residential housing director

Psychologist

Inventor

Human resources profession

Child welfare counselor
How to Love an ENFP

Appreciate my creativity, curiosity, and uniqueness.
Tell me how much I mean to you and be patient with my need to process how I feel privately before sharing it with you.
Re-establish harmony quickly.
Support my need to try new experiences and maintain my many friendships.
Try not force decisions too quickly, or bug me about being messy.
Above all - encourage me to keep growing, changing, and experimenting with life.

The key to success lies in your ability to quickly size others up, and speak their language. Here are just a few clues for SpeedReading (understanding) and SpeedReaching (communicating with) ENFPs.

How to Spot ENFPs:

high energy, friendly, and good natured
imaginative, fun loving, and off beat
curious; discussions shift quickly from one topic to another
warm, concerned, and eager to help solve problems

Tips for Communicating with ENFPs:

Focus on interesting and innovative possibilities and new ways of solving problems
Don't overwhelm them with facts and details
Keep things relaxed, warm and flexible

i think you should know me better now.

2006-05-19T03:15:00.000+08:00

oh please.
dont worry.

I'LL ERASE ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING MEMORY OF YOU TOO,SEAN.

2006-05-15T12:51:00.000+08:00

i truly believe that these few staying at home days by myself has made me a better person.i learnt to appreciate the simplicity of life and everything that singapore has. cold/warm showers, safe drinking tap water, non corrupted officals ,technology and a non leaking roof above my head. marcus called me from batam, he had to move out from dino's kampung. firstly, because the tap water is milky. the shower water is cold and milky.and is horrifyingly creepy to stay there so they booked into a hotel in the afternoon. its so rural, i dont think any of us will be able to survive there. singaporeans grew up with such luxuries we're not even aware of.

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

im gonnna stay home till i get bored .probably till wednesday or something, when they're back from batam with stories to gross me out and keep me away from batam.
i wanna go sri lanka. i visited the website and the villas are like for princesses lahh.its like so grand. so shiok.

2006-05-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPYBIRTHDAY MARC!

happy nineteen birthday!enjoy yourself in batam okay?the cheap sex ,the cheap food,the rural life,the super cheap fags,the strip clubs,the freaking fast techno.

enjoy while it last.
for you'll never be sweet nineteen again.

2006-05-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air

They fly so high nearly reach the sky

Then like my dreams they fade and die

Fortune's always hiding I've looked everywhere

I'm forever blowing bubbles, pretty bubbles in the air.

2006-05-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

what were you doing in secondary school?

1. i hopped cca alot.i had abit of everything.
2.i smoked in class.
3.had sex with kirstin behind the ohp screen.
4.i fell for lesbains.
5.my desk was a showcase of food.

five of your favourite singers/bands

1.blink 182
2.cascada
3.fall out boy
4.H.I.M [his infernal majesty]
5.beyonce

FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD DO IF YOU WERE A MILLIONAIRE

1.i would buy a pair of every breed of dogs.
2.get a mansion at every part of the world and specific locations.
3.purchase all the ferraris , rolls royce's and bentleys and mercs [slk].
4.have a motherfucking hugeass garden for the rabbits to run about,and all the animals.
5.stop animal abuse.

five bad habits

1.biting nails
2.being clumsy
3.being a tad too fucking vulgar.
4.sometimes im violent.and i dont mean it. most of times i dont realise how much strength i use
5.get too emotionally invovled in abit of everything

[naming five bad habits isnt enough.everyone knows i've far too many!]

five things you like doing

1. i like to shop but which girl doesnt?
2.i like to eat. i really do. i live to eat.
3.i like loving people, knowing they'll treat me good.
4.i like to laugh and be happy. ALWAYS.
5.i like to party. and i also like to fool around with my friends.

five things you'll never wear/buy or get

1.bondage accessories because i'm not in to being strapped down
2.i'll never buy those pasa malam earrings.
3.will also never buy those [outside meridien ]fake vondutch stuff.they look really bad.
4.those sillicon bra without straps. they look scary.
5.never will get those silly tapered jeans. i like skinny pants though.

five favourite things

1.my phone
2.my moisteriser
3.cookies
4.skirts
5.sexy heels

2006-05-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

10 thing im grateful for, and want for more this year

1.friends
2.good ol beer
3.creator of toilets.
4.good ventilated air, cold air.
5.good music clubs
6.people who bother reading my blog, to make me smile.
7.mummy, for buying me pretty colourful bras
8.birthday parties
9.love
10. sean, for breaking me and making me stronger than what i am. im thankful.

heartbreak is just another lesson to learn, my friends.

i wont be sad.
because im better than that.

when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
and part of me died when I let you go

im alive and kicking .
back to fantastic loving

i dream, of another you
a perfect you in my dreams

2006-05-05T01:12:00.000+08:00

the law only says we cant be racist on our blogs,
they didnt say we cant laugh at gays.
hello my fellow friends. have a good laugh please.

http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com/

these two guys are a couple. they're gay and proud of it. only thing i respect about them is that they're able to take all the insults. i wouldnt be able to handle.

but i think they're really sick.

"boy sees boy, boy likes boy, boy have sex with boy, boy loves boy. =) "

walau. damn sick lah

being a misfit in society isnt easy,
but if the cockcroach survived, why cant i?

2006-05-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

2006-05-04T02:01:00.000+08:00

hello hello.
im not depressed like all you think.
im actually coping well. and proud of it. of course, big thanks to those who helped.
seriously, im doing fine. and im starting to like the lifestyle without sean. see, think about the good points.
- i can be myself
- i dont have to seek his opinon in whatever i do
- i can work where ever i like. [ he detest me working in bars]
- wear whatever i like
- have fun , as and when i like

see. life is good right now.

2006-04-30T15:25:00.000+08:00

i just read huajia's blog.
i really miss you girl. and all the times we had. we used to be so close, people labeled us as lesbians. we could hold hand and go town together and not bother about stares. we wrote in the journal to 'hint' to the teacher to let us sit together. we talked on the phone till 3. we played candles under my bed . we did so many things together. there came a year, where everything disappeared. you had your friends and commitments, i needed my fun and friends .

all in all, i wanna say. i love you girl. and i always will.
dont forget about us, because i never did.

2006-04-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

you once said, you'll love me forever. you'll make things work . you'll put in the effort. you will never break my heart.

if your asking, how can you do all these without me co-operating. i did. i put in so much motherfucking effort into the relationship.you want your space , fine. but i want my attention from you. yet, you never did bother to call, or msg first. im always the one, who starts calling and messaging. you said your love was fading, i wanted to do what we always did to let you know, i'll never forget. there were so much effort from me, yet you just didnt appreciate. you were unmoved. and now, even if im gonna date, i already feel so restless. so tired.

im so afraid to move on, thinking my new boyfriend will be saying all the sweet stuff, but they're just lies. do you know how afraid i am to get into a relationship, how hard it is for me when i with someone else and not to about you , how unknowingly i think the person next to me is you.how i imagined the person is you. and how horrid i feel to hurt the person.

im trying to forgive and forget.

2006-04-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

watch take the lead. its damn shiok lah. you'll be so infected with with music,dance and attitude.

for a lazy saturday afternoon, i wanna stay home and eat some carl's junior. if only they had delivery :(

2006-04-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

its been six days already. each day, my friends try to occupy with with guys,clubs and booze. one thing im sure of is that, even if sean asks me back [which he wont]i dont think i will be with him. firstly, its gonna be weird.like for example, if he's like holding my hand,i'll be thinking about all the mean things he said.. and like , he wouldnt be loving me as before. so i wouldnt get back with him and anyway, he'll never want me back so i dont have to think so much.

i really want a break. i'll wanna go bali by myself and just let it all go there. im not thinking about a new relationship, its too soon. and i know the feeling of unrequitted love so i wont do that to anyone. give me time.i'll be a happy nut again.

2006-04-21T12:49:00.000+08:00

its been four days being single. and i really hate it.seriously. i think im too used to being attached and taken care of. now, even if i've to go and party and some one touches my ass , i'll be calling sean but before he picks up i'll hang up. mainly because. i dont think its still appropriate. and i want to see him but not under such circumstances. but i guess im also afraid like he wont bother at all.

walau. i'll be crying not because i got touched but because he just doesnt care lah.

okay. tomorrow my post will be better i promise.

I cant stop thinking about what we once had together
I know the reason is that our love was meant forever
But now my life is shared with someone other than you
But life is worthless if right beside me there is no you

Do you remember the day when you first said I love you
I can remember cause through me all my dreams had come true
~~Now I dont know why Im with him when love just aint true~~
But now I do know why Im always wishing that it was you

Everyday, when im alone I think of you You are not my man, but
All I want to know is can I be with you tonight

Hoping Praying you understand how I love you
im trying, waiting to tell you how much I need you
Boy I know I never said enough I love you
but now I know my heart will never love no one but you baby.

Ive never stopped loving your kissing and hugging
I still think of us when im all alone
Its hard for me to forget wishing your the one that im with
Now im so full of regrets
What do I do when I think of you?

2006-04-20T12:13:00.000+08:00

sean could make me deliriously happy or crazy with anger quicker than anyone i've known. and when he smiled ,everything else disappeared and i could not help but smile back.when he was mmad or hurting or thinking or listening, his face was stoned.when he smiled , i felt like i was looking right into his soul. and when i made him smiled, i felt beautiful inside out.sometimes when he held me and my head was resting on his broad shoulder i felt that he could hear my darkest, deepest thoughts.

i would try to concentrate on school,friends, family but it was no use. i would tell myself he wasnt the one for me, not the one i need. but with each passing day, i only wanted him more. i felt so out of control, so afraid and so excited. i would fall asleep thinking of his kisses and wake up in the morning with his magical words ringing in my ear.

my instincts were in constant conflict, trust him. dont trust him. kiss him, dont kiss him. call him, dont call him. tell him how you feel, no that would scare him off.i would stare in his eyes, and think whether he realise how much control he had over me.

then one day, it all came crashing down. he decided to leave and i was hurt. it almost felt like, i couldnt see, i was helpless. desperate. and utterly pathetic. i wondered if he really did loved me. i had so many questions, and so much to tell him.it was like an alarm gone off too soon and now my dream is over.he's gone. and all that is left of what we shared was afew letters and memories.my heart cried out for him , losing someone who was everything to me hurts. it really hurts.

i learned more from sean than any other guy.i hope when the time and strength come,i would be able to get over it .

so hello my friends. please do treasure someone when they're around. you have no idea how much it hurts.

and sean: i hope your happy like that.

2006-04-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

2006-04-17T01:50:00.000+08:00

i miss you.
i really do.

2006-04-14T02:30:00.000+08:00

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
Part of me died
When I let you go

i cant let you go

2006-04-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

oh my god. i have so many stories to tell. lets start from the latest.

yesterday
i met sean opposite BOWENSECONDARY to go to mac ritchie [if thats how ya spell] to fish.we were on the bus then sean had a unknown number call. so he picked it up like a normal kid, and the caller said she found a motorola V3I. [ thats my phone] if looked at me, but dismissed, then looked at me again because im always clumsy. so i thought i'll just check where my phone is, TADA. i lost it. so we went to amk interchange to get it back.i tell you. PREGNANT LADIES ARE THE BEST. SO DAMN HONEST. I GAVE A HUG AND A MILLION THANKS.

then we carried on to the reservoir.sat down on the bench and while he was doing his hooks for fishing , i realise a monkey was looking at us. 'ohhh, so cute. so furry. so adorable' and i happily took a picture. then another came. i went on to looking at the canoe-ing boys. [ HAHA. pls dont tell sean] then the 1st monkey said ' OOOOHH. AHHHH.OH CHI OTO '

hahas. i thought it was only natural. then rustling of leaves in a fast hurried motion.im not kidding. 20 monkeys came. they SURROUNDed us.

omfg.

they went to where i was sitting , took sean's toolbox ,spilled everything. took my CHIPS. sean took the rod, waved at them , hoping they'll go. BUT NO. more came. and they growled at us. like what the hell. i thought if i dont disturb them, they wont disturb me. i knew they were naughty , but not like that.

sean classify monkeys as DEVILISH.
and hope they burn in hot water.

and i so disturbed. why do they have to be that? goodness. okay im too tired to update more. muacks

till again. have fun but practise safe..

2006-03-27T03:27:00.000+08:00

love is blind.

or is it not?

2006-03-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

i think this is so true although it's so contradicting for me to put this up.but whatever the heck. oh ya. class gathering tomorrow. cant wait.

*1. We're not as prvrtd as you think we all
are.

*2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-
boyfriend IS
a LOSER.

*3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses
sometimes too.

*4. Don't argue with us when we call you
beautiful.

*5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes
around
comes around.

*6. We know you're pretty, that's one of
the
reason's we're going out with you.

*7. Don't go into detail about your period.
It scares
us.

*8. If you have cramps and we ask you
what's
wrong, just tell us it's that time of the month
and
nothing more.

*9. If you really liked us for us, you would
let us
think that our mustache, beard, or
sideburns
looked cool.

*10. We never shave our legs. So get over
it.

*11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup
on us.
It's just wrong.

*12. Don't make bets about us, because
one of
your friends will tell us, if you don't.

*13. When we tell you that you're not fat,
believe
us.

*14. We absolutely do not care about the
Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 Degrees,B5,
or
what any other guy looks like for that
matter.

*15. We may not be able to pee accurately
all of
the time, but at least we can stand up and
go pee.

*16. Just cause you think you're always
right,
doesn't mean that you don't have to
apologize
when you do something "wrong."

*17. You expect us to say and do sweet
things for
you, but it would be nice if you did the
same every
once in a while. We like to know that you
love us.

*18. We can't always be spontaneous, so
try to
help us make the plans sometimes.

*19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy
for you,
cause you might get what you wish for.

* 20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see
what
we would say". That's just mean.

*21. Never pretend like you are going to
break up
with us and laugh when we believe you.

*22. Pamela Anderson's breasts aren't fake
anymore, but we like yours better anyway.

*23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots
who don't
want a relationship.

*24. PMS is not an excuse.

*25. If you want us to put the seat down
when
we're done, you should put it up when
you're done.

*26 Don't tell us how cute your ex-
boyfriend was.
That doesn't turn us on.

*27. And always remember: The way to a
guys
heart is through his stomach..... and
maybe....oh
nevermind.

*28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You
might
be that comfy with your friends, but to us
it's just
wrong.

*29. We always notice how funny it is after
your rip
out our heart,
stick it down our throat and still want to be
friends.

*30. And last but not least: We know
you're not
always right, but we'll pretend like you are
anyway

girls, this is so true but i just dont want to admit. hahas.

2006-03-21T02:26:00.000+08:00

i wish you could be here , by my side , singing my favourite lullaby

2006-03-18T18:01:00.000+08:00

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

2006-03-17T00:58:00.000+08:00

In case you cannot identify them all in this photo, from left to right, top to bottom: Kelis (though I think she looks like Lauren Hill), Gwen Stefani, Lil Jon, Beyonce and Jay-Z, Missy Elliot.

is this creepy or cute?

2006-03-15T01:44:00.000+08:00

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

anyyway, i drew a house on some web site , and the comments are above. though, i thnk 50-50 is true, and the other is not. try it! there's a pig too.

ps:i didnt upload my house and pig cause its simply awful!

2006-02-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

Ive got so many questions for you
but Im sick of asking
Ive got so much tears for you
but Im sick of crying
Ive got so much feelings for you

Cos Im sick of falling
When theres no one there to hold me

but i cant leave
im too dependant already
i will die
why is that when we are so close to a year
but we still cry to bed so often?
im so afraid if we go on , then break
what will become of me?
but if we dont break,im so sick of crying.

2006-02-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Without a doubt,
this blog celebrates sex.
But it also celebrates life.
And it will continue to do so.
It is my way of resisting the black hole of depression,loneliness and apathy
things that must have plagued me since i was born.

I shag, therefore I live.

to you , i wish all mad sex.

i really abhore schools.

2006-02-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Put a dog in the same room with a bone. Tell him firmly he is not supposed to touch the bone. Lock the door. Observe the dog.

First, he goes over to the bone and gives it a suspicious sniff. He walks back to his corner and contemplates. Seems just like a normal bone. He sits. He waits. He then goes over and gives the bone a tentative lick. Immediately he springs back, cautious that he has done something his owner has expressly forbidden him to do. He surveys the room. No one seems to have noticed. He sits. He waits. He assesses the situation with his canine faculties – he seems to have gotten away with his last little infraction.

He then walks over to the bone and circles it warily, still relatively alert should his owner suddenly appear. Finally, he can stand it no longer. He settles on his haunches and starts gnawing away at the bone. As time passes though, he grows careless. Soon he is lying flat on his stomach, ravishing the bone with his jaws, sucking the marrow to his heart’s content.

At some point, he even attempts to shag the bone. And the bone is experiencing new parts of the dog that no bone has ever experienced before. It is in the middle of our dog’s pleasuring, when you choose to walk back into the room. Guilt and shame overwhelm the dog. His tail hangs between his legs and he refuses to make eye contact. He sits. He waits. You make no move to forgive him. And the dog rationalizes to himself that it was you who created the situation and put him in the same room as the bone anyway. It’s your fault. Offence is the best defense. He denies all knowledge of the bone. Instead, he snarls and barks and threatens to pounce on you if you don’t go away.

Note: This experiment may work on other domesticated mammals. (But hey,its year of the Dog at that, so I’m just being festive.)

2006-02-15T04:23:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day!

see! even robin and batman are kissing on this day.why dont you make some love too?

2006-02-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's valentine day and i decided to be nice to only think of 3 presents to receive.

note: this entry is only applied for for SEAN and any good looking males.
others need not apply.

firstly, its tulips.

secondly, its only a ring from tiffany's
[which i think IS very reasonable.]

last, just a simple SLK will do.
:)

i think im one of those 'very easy to maintain girl'. its not like im asking for HOUSES. these are only accessories. i can make do.

WAIT TILL MARRIAGE. i'll ask you for a ZOO.
HAHA

and i pray the hardest tonight.

2006-02-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

I swear to one of the many Gods out there that I am sure im gonna commit sui-fucking-freaking-cide later.

the o levels results are out on friday,10 of february, 2.30pm.
which reminds me, its today.

i cant do anything about it now can i? i tel myself, theres no use worrying.theres nothing i can do about it but thinking how bad i did for prelims, how i didnt put 110 per cent of effort i already feel like popping pills to die.how can i be happy tomorrow. i know for sure, and i mean for sure im gonna cry, die , and you. are gonna attend my funeral. seriously, i already know where to go, i've already plan which poly, which courses, and IF i dont fufill my own requirements, you can see me being posessed, jumping down the school,with a pool of blood outta my mouth, with a crushed face,broken limbs and this that.

ok. im gonna try speaking sensibly, OH MY FUCKING GOD. WHAT AM I GONNA DO WHEN I RECEIVE MY RESULTS?

im register number FOUR.and what am i gonna do? im gonna hide it. and pretend everythings all right.tell me please. where can i go , if i dont do well. i know there are alternatives, but i dont like them at all. dont a single bit. please, i promise i'll be good forever. please just give me sweet results.

i've no mood for writing already.
goodnight .
[ps: this might the last entry ever]

end.
with lots of love

2006-02-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

oh my god. friday's my results. i really wouldnt know what to do if i cant do well. i've already decided where to go and all. now, all i need is GOOD results. im not asking for a freaking 8 points or what. all i need is a decent number. please. if not, your sure to catch me jumping down the school,drowning in bath, over dose of sleeping pills. please, GOD. i beg you to give me what i need. you've a 'near to death' patient here. i will die any second . pleaaaaaassseeee.

speaking of god. here guys, have fun talking to god here.
http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/

you know,
i think it's kinda cute the way..
you poison my coffee just a little each day..
i still remember the way that you laughed..
when you pushed me down that elevator shaft..

2006-02-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

There are very many things
I would like to say to you
but i've lost my way
and I've lost my words

why is it normal ?

2006-02-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

Its alright for manwhores to play the field...in fact its "cool", ego boosting...bla. But its never alright for a woman. That is irony. The modern day saying, the Casanova, plays to his heart's content and rather than disdain from his peers, he receives praise and respect. Most of us who have been in and out of relationships know that almost all men have difficulty keeping their dicks in their pants. After the first few weeks, or months of the honeymoon period, the roving eyes of your boyfriend never fails to spot that sexpot that walked past. And of course, most women do find it annoying that while her lover is having a conversation with her, his eyes are wandering elsewhere. The more accepting and open-minded girls accept this trait of men, and some even partake in it by commenting on the attributes of the attractive passer-by. It seems like polygamous inclinations never left the male genes. Its been passed on, and the result is the breakdown of many marriages, swinging couples, open relationships, one-night stands and affairs.

if you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore

happy new year. well, BELATED i mean.

2006-02-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday crystal!!

i am so dying to go out. its a friday night and im home? i wanna catch a movie/club/drink/ANYTHING. god, please send someone to accompany me.

and if you are wondering why sean is not available to do that i'll tell you. [since im so bored, i wouldnt mind a long entry] he has a habit of doing his assignments last minute so yesterday he didnt sleep at all [ as in seriously.. the whole night!] to rush for his assignment and as a result, he is sleeping now. and i usually spend my fridays with him doing whatever.

i visited every one for new year except his mom mainly because seeing his mom for the 1st time means its another step deeper into the relationship and not that i dont want to .. its just that our relationship hasnt been exactly stable enough to do that. if i visit her, it'll make this relationship seem so all right WHEN ITS NOT. and i would only want to see her when i feel safe and sound in this relationship.

catch me at.. FURKIDS!

2006-02-02T00:20:00.000+08:00

hello guys. i just got my sim card today so please do me a favour and send me all your numbers! muacks. i'll be working today at the pet shop [ beside longhouse] from 1130 to 830 so all those who loves me, please please visit me. muacks. meanwhile here are some photos for you. as you can see, sean OBVIOUSLY detests taking photos with me too [ look at his god damned face] and he finds BIG boobs . that idiot asshole. but nevertheless, i've NATHAN to kiss! hahas. and i finally saw gina and caryn that day. man, it was a great night no matter how much love sean portrays. hahas!

2006-02-01T01:40:00.000+08:00

dont ask why i make a face when i take photos with him. anyway, crystal left that day :(